Lucas' 1st Razorback Game!

Saturday we took Jacob and Lucas to see the Razorbacks play. It was an awesome game by the way, the Razorbacks scored in the first few seconds! Jacob has been before, but Lucas hadn't. We had a plan for the whole day, a week before the game. We were going to leave super early so we did not get into too much traffic. Since we would have time to kill, we were going to take the kids to the zoo for awhile and maybe the McDonald's across the street from the stadium. That was a good plan, except into the week, the news started talking about rain for Saturday. We didn't know what to do then. We didn't know if we should even try to bring the kids at all. I was not going to leave because they were getting wet! In the end, we decided to take them. We had to take Nicolas to my mother in laws that morning, of course, on the entire way, it was pouring! Jason and I left all the kids with her and ran to 5 different stores to find ponchos. Everyone was sold out! Finally found some, and picked the kids up. I realize that I have left my camera at home, so we have to go back to get it. It was fine, we had time. We finally get to the ramp on the freeway where traffic is stopped. We get close to the zoo and I have Jason let me and the boys out so we can go to the zoo while he parks the car. We get in the zoo at 3, and they close at 4:30. The kids had me running so they could see everything before we had to go. I pull out my camera and guess what? NO MEMORY CARD! I was only able to take 3 pictures, and now have no idea how to get them off the camera! We are finally walking up to go in the stadium. Everyone that knows Lucas, knows that he takes his time to look at everything. He was walking so slow. Everyone that came up behind us was just going around with no problems. Then some lady that looked she was from some ghetto, had to mouth off when she passed us. I mouthed back. She came at me, but just stared at me for a minute, and then says, "I was not trying to be rude, you did not have to be that way." I just stared back waiting for her to say something else, but she walked off. I seen that lady a few times after that, she would just stare at me. I don't know what the deal was. It was 5, the game started at 6, and we were right by the gate that she was going in, she was not going to miss anything. I was mad about that for awhile. On our way in, we bought the kids a hog nose and a little pom pom. Thank goodness that the people sitting in front of us and behind us were very nice. I cannot tell you how many times they got whacked in the head by Lucas swinging his pom pom! He was hilarious the entire game. The band was sitting in the section next to us, Lucas thought that was wonderful. Every time they played, he had to stand up and dance. After the game, the kids got to hang over the side and high five the players. Lucas did it, but was more worried about the band. After the last player came through, he took off to the band and yelled at them "You did wonderful. I really like you!" Of course some girls were eating that up! Even though there were a few mishaps at the start of our day, it was a great day to hang out with most of my boys. Even though I did not get a picture of Lucas' face when he went in there, I do not think I could ever forget the look! He asked me the other day, if I could take him to another Razorback game on Tuesday? I told him I would as soon as they started playing on Tuesdays!


Kathy

This is driving me crazy!

I do not know where to even begin! I am so frustrated with school right now. I am sick of taking classes that do not pertain to anything. This time I am in Religions of the World and Environmental Science. First E.S. I know that people pollute everything, we really can't do anything about it while we're all sitting on our computers using up energy, right? I think that it is ridiculous to learn how to conserve energy when we are using a ton of energy just to read the stupid information they are giving us. I do not care for that class, and it is showing in my grade, oops! I have an A, but it's a 94%. If I paid some sort of attention, I would have a better grade. Now for R.W. I thought, before I started the class, that it would be interesting. Boy was I wrong! I have learned a lot, but I do not know why I need to know any of this. Sunday I had to write a paper comparing the lives of Jesus and Muhammad(founder of Islam). That was very difficult. I do not believe anything that has to do with Islam, the more I have learned about it, the more it sounds completely made up! I have had a lot of trouble trying to keep an open mind and not injecting my own beliefs into class. I believe I am done, I can not take it anymore. I am going to tell everyone that Islam is made up! For my final project in that class, I had to interview someone of a different religion than my own and write a paper comparing the two. I choose the friars at the monastery. They are Catholic, which is Christian, and that was as far as I was willing to go! While I was at the monastery, I met the nicest young man, Brother Daniel. He was fairly new to the monastery. He was answering my questions, and it seemed like he was so old, because he knew so much. He was talking about when he was in high school like it was so long ago, then later he said his age, and I am sure he saw a crazy look on my face! He was only 21! He took me on a tour of the monastery, and then we walked to the cemetery way in the back. I did not see any of the other friars. I did not know, but there are only 5 of them there right now. There used to be more, but Brother Daniel told me that a couple of them have gotten too old to care for themselves, so they are in nursing homes. Anyway, if any good has come out of this class, it was getting to meet Brother Daniel. It is something that I will always remember.
If anyone wants to know anything about Brother Daniel and my interview, I will be glad to tell you. Til next time...

Kathy

Goal

I have a new work out goal to work towards. It may sound stupid to some, but it's enough to get me going. My mother-in-law and her twin sister turn 50 on September 28. My father-in-law will turn 50 on November 30th. In honor of this big birthday, they want to have a big birthday party to celebrate. I think my aunt-in-law's daughter is doing a family cookout on September 26, but that night we are going to do an adult only party, and I think it's going to be at the V.F.W! I would like to look better than the 50 year olds there! In early August, I bought E.A. Sports Active work out game for Wii. I started it that day, and within 3 days, I had lost 4 lbs. I got a cold that turned into bronchitis, I think. I tried to work out, but I couldn't breathe. So I haven't been back to working out yet...I will be starting back today/tonight. The game has a 30 day challenge that's supposed to whip you into shape fast, and it was kicking my butt! I had just got to where my legs weren't so sore after a workout before I quit, so I will have to go back through that, ugh. I am not going to be a brave soul that posts how much I weigh, or any measurements on here. I will update on the amount of weight lost though. I am not going to stop working out on September 26, I would like to look awesome for a 30 year old when I turn 30 in January! I may have 3 kids, but no one said I have to look like I do! LOL!

Kathy

Mom Gripe!

Isn't the sporadic screaming of a child enough to deal with when they're getting molars? Did the uncontrollable poop have to be added in? Last week I had to take two vomit covered kids into the store. This week I have been pooped on twice! Nicolas got me Tuesday while I was out trying to get some business taken care of. I knew he had pooped, but I did not know that it had run out of his diaper and down his leg. I picked him up and there was poop on both of my legs. I had no diaper wipes with me, of course! Nicolas and I had to ride home from North Little Rock covered in poop! He got me again today. I picked him up and went to pat his butt, I got a little more than expected. My hand was covered in poop. This time we were home, so it wasn't that bad.
Just wondering why they can't just have one thing wrong at a time. The screaming is very annoying, but poop is just gross, especially when it is all over me. Last week with the stomach virus, it had to come out both ends, why? One or the other I can deal with, but my patience is getting tested when I have to clean puke and poop at the same time. I think that guy that does that show Dirty Jobs should come by my house on one of those days. I think it would take that show to another level!

First Week of School

Somehow we survived the first week of school. Jacob and Lucas were very excited to go on Wednesday! There was so much traffic that day, it seemed like we had to walk a mile to get in there! When we finally got in, Jacob tells me that he is walking to his class by himself. I did not want him to, I wanted him to let me walk him, but he wouldn't budge. I got Lucas in his class, and he didn't say a word. Told me bye, and got down to business. I cried the whole way back to my car because Jake is too big to let his momma walk him to class. That night, Lucas came down with the stomach bug that Nicolas had on Monday. He was heart broken when I told him he could not go to school the next day. He did not get better on Thursday, so I had to tell him that he couldn't go on Friday either. When we picked Jake up Thursday, he locked himself up in his bedroom so he could stay away from the 'sick people'! Early Saturday morning, the stomach virus hit me and Jake. It was horrible. Jason turned 30 on Saturday, and we were supposed to go to Greeneville to Harlow's casino, but I wasn't sure if we would get to go. The stomach bug wasn't around for long, so we did get to go. SO, finally the stomach bug is gone, and Jason got to go out on his birthday. Now back to normal, kind of. I am starting a job tomorrow, we will see how that goes. I will be helping in the office where Jason works. I think my first task is to figure out if certain trucks are making money or not. I have no idea how many trucks there are, so I have no idea how long that will take. I'll update tomorrow after my first day.

It is almost over!

Nicolas is growing up, way too fast I might add! I was sitting in the bathroom talking on the phone (that's the only place I can semi be alone). Nicolas had to come in and he had no diaper on. He went straight to the potty chair and sat down. He was just playing at first, but then I sat him on there the right way. He PEED in the potty!!!! After he peed, he would not put a diaper on, he had to have underwear. He then walked around the house with his underwear around his ankles. He wanted to sit on the potty again, and he peed again! He is still in underwear, and refuses to wear a diaper. I do not know if it will last, but we will see.

Odd time...

It is such an odd time of summer for me right now. We haven't done anything really. The only real outing the kids have had so far is going to see Ice Age: Dawn of the Dinosaurs. We have gotten messed up on our schedule and don't get up until noon. I have just been saying, well we have time to do this or that, but I just realized summer is almost half over!

I got a letter in the mail and Lucas got accepted into Pre-K. He will be at school 5 days a week now. That is odd in it's self. It does not seem like he should be old enough to go to school for 5 days. Worse, it will be weird only having one kid at home during the day. I do not know what I will do when Nicolas goes to school.

As you all know, Jason has been looking for a new job. He may have found one. It will be truck driving again, but he will be home more than he was before. He will be gone all week, but they only require him to work one weekend a month. The only problem will be working out where my kids will be bunco nights! LOL!

Nicolas has decided on a couple of different occasions to take his diaper off and get on the potty or try to pee in the shower. Nothing has happened, but it may if I start sending him in there every time Jake uses the bathroom. I am not going to stress myself this time. I am not saying a word, I am just going to let him do it when he is good and ready. I am determined to make this the smoothest potty training I have ever done. With Jake and Lucas being in school 5 days a week come August, I may have the time to work with him more than I could the other two.

I guess that's about it for now. Until next time...


Kathy

The most un-cool story of my life!!!

I have never had a broke bone in my whole 29 years. Until yesterday. I had to run into the Dollar store for a minute. If I knew for sure I would not have the cops called on me, I would have left the kids in the car, but I had to take them in! I got what I needed and was about to check out when they started the I wants. I told them they could have a soda. They were getting them out of the cooler when I asked them if they wanted a beef jerky. Lucas was not listening of course, so I was trying to show him. Jake had 2 sodas in his hands and tried to grab the jerky out of my hand. When he did, one of the sodas dropped and landed very hard, on my toe! I could not do anything. I wanted to scream and hit something. When I finally got to the car, it was okay, still hurt a little, but okay. It started swelling before I got home. Later last night when I looked at it, that toe and the one beside it, and half of my foot was purple! So I have taped my toes up. Jason has had broke toes before and said that is all the hospital would do. When there is no tape on them, my flip flops do not fit right! I do not know what I will do if I cannot wear flip flops anymore!
What tops everything off is all this happened on our way home from taking Nicolas to the doctor. When he woke up yesterday, his whole left eye was swollen shut. He acted like nothing was wrong, but I took him anyway. He had a mosquito bite on his eyebrow that caused his eye to swell. He always gets big red welts, but this has never happened. Since we live in Arkansas, he will be drugged up on allergy meds all summer! Hopefully he will gain some kind of immunity to mosquitoes.

Kathy

It has started...

Lucas notices girls now! He has always noticed the girls he is around, but not this time! We had to run in the store Friday afternoon before we picked Jake up from school. Since I drive a bus now, I can not park very close to the door, so we parked down one of the aisles. A car pulled in after us and parked right at the door...
Walking up towards the door, Lucas notices a little girl getting out of that car. The look on his face was priceless!
Lucas, "Mommy hurry up!"
Me, "OK, I'm coming."
We get in the store and the girl and her mother are still outside.
Lucas, "Mommy, did you see that girl?"
Me, "Yes."
Lucas, "I really like her hair cut." He meant he liked her hair, I don't know why he says that.
Me, "You did? Do you like girls with brown hair?"
Lucas, "Yes and with long hair, like that girl."
We do our shopping, then we end up on the meat aisle with them...
Lucas (whispering with his hand up to block one side of his mouth) "Mommy, there she is."
Me, "I know, I see her."
Lucas, "She is so pretty."
Me, "Yes Lucas she is pretty."

It wasn't a great conversation, but if you could have seen his face while he was telling me this! I was looking into a teenage boys face that had just seen what they thought was the most beautiful woman in the world. It was hilarious!

It is very weird too, Jacob has never said anything like that about girls, just different kids I guess!

Kathy

Mother's Day

Today is Mother's Day(not technically, but I haven't been to bed yet!) and I have to say that it has not been the best one. Jason and the kids were great. Jacob actually gave me a kiss! I can not remember the last time he has kissed me, I sometimes get a hug out of him, but not often.

Last year since Jason was going to be gone on Mother's Day we brought gifts to my mom, his mom and his grandma about 10 days before. Since it was so long before, I thought nothing of his mom and grandma saying nothing to me, the mother of their grand-kids. Well Mother's Day came and nothing. By the way, I am used to them forgetting me, they call me a week late to wish me a happy birthday or us a happy anniversary every year, even though it has been 10 years and they should know these dates. A year later and they never said anything about it, neither did I. Today being Mother's Day and Jason being home, we go out there today with gifts. Guess what? Nothing for Kathy! I do not need or want them to buy me anything, Jason got me the only thing I wanted! They could at least say Happy Mother's Day, or something. Also, we even got Jason's aunt something because her own kids do not, and she said thanks and that was it! If I were talking to my mother, I would have gotten dinner, a card-whether she made it or bought it, and some crappy dollar store candle, but she would have acknowledged me. Is it wrong of me to want some acknowledgement?

Jason and I had to go buy these gifts today, you know that my middle name is procrastination! We took all three kids in Wal-Mart, it was absolutely the stupidest thing I have ever done! It would not have been bad if I were just going in for gifts, but we needed groceries...

On Wednesday Jason bought me the Twilight movie and soundtrack. Lucas has said that he wants to watch it every time it goes off, so I was surprised when I tried to take it out of the DVD player that it had not been melted in! I have not been able to just sit and watch it without being interrupted, ahhh the joys of having kids! So, on our way home I asked Jason to please keep the kids entertained while I sat and watched the movie in peace. He had them cleaning their room and watched it with me. I had to stop it ever so often because I was cooking at the same time, but I ended up falling asleep and still haven't seen it in it's entirety! Now I am just wondering when this day will ever end!

Even though my day did not turn out to be some fairy tale, I still enjoyed parts of the day! I also enjoy being a mother. A few days ago the kids and Jason were getting to me, and I actually said that I was done with this being a mommy thing, but I really could not imagine myself doing anything else. I think that I need those smelly little boys in my life as much as they need me. I have bad days, every mother telling the truth does. Motherhood is not a fairy tale. Motherhood is stricken with constant guilt and worry. If you say or do one thing wrong, does it mean that you have completely messed up? Motherhood gives no time to being stingy anymore. Not stingy as in not sharing a toy, but sometimes I do not want to go out in the rain, and if I did not have kids I would not, but now I have to because someone needs something, like milk, or they want to go to Sonic. Sometimes I think that my children are inconsiderate because I never get asked if I want to do whatever it is they want to do, but they are just children, and they haven't had to give up their stinginess just yet. I do what they are doing, and most of the time I have fun! Being a stay at home mom is NOT a glamorous job. I get so annoyed with people that think stay at home moms do nothing all day but watch soaps. Yeah right! First of all if I get to watch something during the day, it involves weird colored animals and theme songs for everything and usually comes on Nick or Disney. Staying at home means that your entire house gets destroyed 10-15 times a day, depending on how many times you pick it up so they can drag it all back out! You get to do about 3 times the normal amount of dishes because someone can not use the same cup for milk and then juice, and then milk again. You get to spend an hour vacuuming floors because the night before someone walked through the whole house in cleats, and the dog sheds everywhere, just to have them come in at the end of the day covered in mud!
BUT, it is the most wonderful job I have ever had! Where else could I see everything my kids do for the first time. I have been able to see the first steps, see them rocking on their knees and finally figuring out how to crawl, hear that first muttering that turns out to be their first word. I get to go to every school function. I get to make up games. I get to turn music way up and just dance around the living room with them. Being a mom is the most stressful thing I will ever do, but I know that it is the only thing I ever want to do. They only have one childhood and I do not want it to be less than perfect for them. This has been a very stressful Mother's Day for me, I have not been in the best mood for the past couple of weeks. I did not want this to be a fake post about how wonderful motherhood is all of the time, blah blah blah. These are my true feelings this M.D. Take them or leave them. I love those boys more than anything in this world, and the only thing that matters is that they know that.

I do not need my mother in law or anyone else to say Happy Mother's Day to me, it only matters coming from the kids. They both put their arms around my neck kissed me and told me that I was the best mom in the world. That is the only thing a mom needs on Mother's Day.

Kathy

I've been busy!

We have been super busy will baseball, t-ball, school for three of us and I can not remember what else we have done! Jake is doing very well in baseball! He did not like it at first, but after he was one of the only kids to hit in a game, he likes it pretty well now. Lucas on the other hand absolutely hates t-ball! We can not do anything to keep him out there. He would quit if we would let him, I think Nicolas is more interested in it than Lucas is!
We are definitely ready for summer! I think we all need a break. Spending three nights a week at the ballpark is taking a toll on us. I have only 1 1/2 weeks left in this block of class, woo hoo! If I never have to write again, it would not hurt me one bit! I do have one more writing class to do, but it is writing memos and resumes. I think I can handle that.

I have read the first three books in the Twilight series, thanks to Paula for getting me addicted! The only reason I bring it up is because Lucas and I had the funniest conversation about vampires!
Lucas said something about a vampire, but I did not hear it.
I say, "Lucas, you know those books mommy has been reading are about vampires?"
Lucas, "Oh, you don't need to be around vampires."
Me, "Really, why not?"
Lucas,"They are dangerous." He said this almost whispering, like it was really scary!
Me, "Really?"
Lucas, "YES! They will eat your blood out of your neck and then fly away and eat a cows blood out of its neck."
I could not help but to laugh. I guess he thinks I am going to go out and look for a vampire. He really does not know anything about vampires, what he thinks he knows is really information from Animal Planet on Vampire Bats. Anytime he sees a bat, it is a vampire.

One night Christen, Dave and Hunter came out. I cooked chicken quesadillas, mexican rice and brownies for everyone. Last week I cooked quesadillas again and Lucas of course had to know what was cooking.
Lucas, "What are you cooking me for dinner?'
Me, "Chicken quesadillas."
Lucas, "I don't eat that amymore." He says amymore instead of anymore!
Me, "Yes you do. If you do not eat this, I do not know what you will eat."
Lucas, "Did you cook that when Christen and her family were here?"
Me,"Yes, you ate them then, are you going to eat them now?"
Lucas, "Oh yes, I like those."
I'm thinking yeah, I knew that.
After I had a few made,
Me, "Lucas are you ready to eat?"
Lucas, "Yes, I need you to blow it...wait, I can't eat until Christen and her family get here."
He was serious! The conversation went on. I guess he thinks that I can only cook quesadillas when Christen and her family are here? That child is crazy!


Kathy

Busy week...

I'm just going to update what has been going on here. You all probably know that the week of Valentine's that Jacob missed the entire week of school because he had the flu. He went back the next week and missed a couple of days that week. The next week he had a stomach virus, and then I finally got him back the next week. Last weekend, he got sick again. I was convinced that he had some kind of child hood disease! I called Paula and she calmed me a little. I took him to the Dr. on Monday and they said he had some virus, but if he wasn't better in a week bring him back in and have him tested for mono. He was getting worse, so I took him on Wednesday, I still haven't got the results, hopefully tomorrow. He seems to be a little better now, he is finally eating. He looks so puny, I think he has lost at least 10 lbs. Lucas and Nicolas have been fine, not even a sneeze out of them. Friday I was contacted about doing a party in Paragould, and agreed because I didn't realize that Paragould was so far away. I made $155 and recruited someone, so it wasn't that bad. Saturday I woke up feeling horrible. My lungs are very congested and I cannot stop coughing. (Perfect opportunity to stop smoking!) I am still sick, I have had fever and chills, and cannot stay awake half the time. I do not know what I am going to do tomorrow while Jason is at work, hopefully I will be okay. That is all that has been going on here, sickness! I will keep everyone posted on whether or not there is mono in the house!

Kathy

Day what?

OK, so Jason and I have been slacking on the 40 day love dare. We keep forgetting to read it. I think we did make it through 4 or 5 days, but I really do not remember! We are fine though. Jason had his first day alone at the new job today, it did not go well. He thinks that the customers did something to the wires or the boxes when he had to leave to get them something else, so when he got back, nothing was working. Jacob had his second baseball practice today. I was not informed that it went from being an hour to an hour and a half. We left the house at the last minute, so I had no time to grab cups, toys, kitchen sink, etc! At the ball park the only thing that kept Lucas' and Nicolas' attention was playing in the sand and throwing the sand. We didn't get to leave the ball park until 7 and I still had to come home and cook dinner, so I was not in a good mood. Thank goodness there was a frozen pizza! I had to get them in the bath and feed them before 8, but guess what, Jacob still had homework, so he was up until 9:15! Now it is 2 a.m. and I cannot go to sleep. I am very ready for this day to be over and to start a new one tomorrow. I am so glad that we have more than one day. We can always start over tomorrow! I was going to clean the yard tomorrow, but I am watching Brooklyn while Diane goes on a field trip with Austin. Maybe I can take the two babies on a walk or something? May need to ask Paula for a double stroller!

Kathy

Day 1: Love is Patient

Today was about showing patience and not being negative. I have to admit that I was very patient today. Everywhere I went there were horrible lines, and wait times. Maybe God threw those in so I would have to be patient? The not being negative part was easy. It happened to be a very pleasant day! I don't know if it was easy because Jason and I hardly ever fight and there was nothing to fight about today, or no reason to get mad, or we just realized that nothing is accomplished with being negative. He folded 6 or 7 loads of laundry and there were no bad words said at all. He knew that he had to fold laundry today, so he just did it, and I kept my mouth shut. If he didn't fold it, I would have folded it tomorrow, even though the rule is you wash it you fold it. I was also trying to not be negative with the kids. Just using the right tone accomplished this goal. Jake and Lucas were mad at Nicolas and Jake grabbed Nicolas' hand, but I just told Jacob why he can't do that to him, and everything was fine.

Tomorrow is to keep with the patience and not being negative, but add in an unexpected gesture as an act of kindness. This one may be difficult. We do things all the time to help each other, so we are a little lost in what to do. I'll figure something out, and I'm sure he will too. While we were reading tomorrow's dare we kinda looked at each other, and I know what he was thinking, why are we doing this. I was thinking the same thing. These first dares are for those who are in bad marriages I guess. They don't really pertain to us, but were doing them anyway. Later in the book, it gets into praying together and things like that, I do not believe that we have ever prayed together. I see where it would help us though. I have got Jason to agree to church! We are going to Grace now. I think that's the only reason I got him to agree. You can wear your blue jeans and it isn't til 5 p.m. Oh well it's a start! I'll keep everyone posted on what else happens...

Kathy

Fireproof

OK, so Jason and I watched Fireproof last night. I think that he didn't like it like I did, but he is a man! Our marriage has the usual stuff going on, nothing like what was going on in the movie, but it made us look at our marriage differently. It's hard to be like you were when you met after kids, bills and jobs are in the way. We are going tomorrow to buy The Love Dare. I think we are going to start Monday. I think that every married couple should at the very least watch the movie, then if you're up to it do the Love Dare. It's forty days of different things to do. I know on the first day you have to go all day without saying anything negative to the other person. After thinking about it for awhile, I realized that we both say things that are negative to each other, most of the time it's not meant that way, but we do it. We have absolutely nothing to lose by trying it, only a stronger relationship to gain. We'll then have the books for future reference if we get off track. I think that our kids deserve parents that have a strong relationship. I will keep y'all posted on what happens. I don't know yet if I'll post every day or once a week or what, but I will keep you updated!

Kathy

Happy Birthday!

The second was Lucas' birthday, he turned 4 this year. On the first I made him a birthday cake, it was white with white icing and a whole bunch of sprinkles, just the way he wanted it! We haven't had a birthday party yet because I plan on doing Jacob and Lucas together and getting them a Wii, I just haven't been able to do it yet. The morning after the cake which was actually his birthday, he snuggled up on the couch with me and said, "Thank you mommy for making me a birsday cake." I said "you are so welcome." Then he said, "thank you for singing happy birsday to me too!" BTW he says birsday instead of birthday. I guess he thought I didn't have to make a cake for him, I don't know. It was nice to be thanked for something, even though I have always made a big deal for them on the actual day of their birthday. He is growing up to be quite the little charmer though. I'm gonna have my hands full with that one!

Just an update on the internet, I tried using the library earlier, and it worked! I don't know how, but it did.

Kathy

Whatever!

OK, I don't know what I was thinking when I put in my resolutions that I was going to be organized! There is absolutely no way to organize 5 people's things in 1100 sq. ft. I have only accomplished getting frustrated. There is no where to put anything. I think I may need to go through everything again and get rid of what I do not absolutely have to have, and maybe then I will have some room. I don't know!
By the way, still no luck with Cricket, I can't get them to return my calls. Looks like a new ISP in my future, and I will see if Cricket will refund any of my money since they have not provided me full access to the internet like I pay for, we will see.

Kathy

Jacob

I was looking at this and it seems like Jake is being left out! What can I say about Jacob? He is so very smart, and I am not saying that because I am his mother, the other people around him also see it. He has straight A's in school. He had to read 100 books by the 100th day of school, and he finished early, of course. He is at 140 books and still reading. He cannot lie, at all! He makes a face if he tries, but he also told me what his face looks like if he is trying to pull one over on me! I guess you could say he's honest. When you really get him laughing, he still has a baby giggle that is the cutest thing. He makes up all kinds of jokes and then laughs at himself. He loves his brothers, he may not always admit it, but he does. He is very helpful with them. On Saturday mornings he is the first one up, he will get Nicolas and play with him so Jason and I can sleep in. He is the first one to tell me when Lucas is doing something wrong! He reads to Lucas and tells him what the letters are, I didn't know this and was wondering how Lucas was learning the alphabet, then I caught him reading and teaching. He is a truly sweet little boy. I can not believe that my baby is over half way through with the 1st grade, before I know it, he will be in college.

Kathy

My little Romeo!

Lucas, Lucas, Lucas. He is crazy! Over Christmas break, Lucas and I got 'married'. I don't remember what brought this on, but he just had to marry me. I just said "Do you promise to love me?", he said, "yes!" I promised him the same and we were married. Afterwards I asked him if we were going on a honeymoon and he said we were going drinking! Of course I said, "drinking?!", he said we were going to drink sprite. Some days he doesn't say anything about us being married until Jason comes in and gives me a kiss. He will punch Jason, usually in his man parts, and say "that's my wife!" Other days he talks about it non-stop. When I'm laying on the couch, he'll come lay beside me, and look at me and say, I love you wife! Look at that sweet face! It sometimes gets very annoying, sometimes he won't just quit talking about it. At school, since Valentine's Day is coming up, they are asking them what love means to them. Lucas put down that he loves his mommy only, then went back and put he loves bananas also! I am enjoying that he loves me so much, because I know the time is coming when he would rather talk to a tree than talk to me!

Kathy

UGH!

I can't give any updates on the kids, I don't know what they've been doing. I have been on the phone with 3 different tech supports since Saturday. I have talked to U of Phoenix tech support,U of Phoenix library tech support and Cricket tech support, and still no help! UGH! In one of my classes I have a persuasive essay on outsourcing jobs to foreign countries, which I haven't really started. I was thinking I have 9 weeks to do it, but this past Sunday my thesis statement was due, this coming Sunday the full sentence outline is due. Up until Friday I had no problems getting into the library. Saturday I sat down and was going to start my research, I couldn't get into the library. After numerous phone calls and borrowing Paula's computer, I figured out it wasn't my computer, there is something wrong on Crickets end. I am waiting for a call back from them. I may end up having to change ISP's. With all of the phone calls they had me changing all of my stuff up, so much so I have no idea where to start to try to get my computer back the way it was. When I try to login to MySpace, it takes me to Google for some reason. I am so sick of the computer. I guess I need to get over that, I'm only 4 weeks into a 20 month degree!
I do know that today Nicolas walked around alot! He yelled ever few seconds to make sure everyone knew what he was doing. It was pretty funny. If my computer ever gets fixed I will let y'all know.

Kathy

Here's a picture of Nicolas walking. I videoed him with the camera, but the computer wouldn't recognize that so I ran and found the video camera. My windows media player has never worked right so guess what, no video! I hate this stupid computer! I know you can't see much from the picture, but it is the best I can do. He is doing so good, he is walking everywhere!

Kathy

My little baby is so BIG!

My little baby decided to walk! He just got up from sitting in the floor and took off! He didn't do it very long, but he did it. The last time he tried he fell back and hit his head on the coffee table and that made him fall forward and hit his face on the floor. I wasn't able to get a picture of him walking before he fell. I will get one and post it. I am so sad that my little baby is growing up!

Kathy

Turning 29....

I am minutes away from turning 29. I thought that I should say something! Where I am at in my life is not where I thought I would be 12-15 years ago. I was not the type of girl that always had a boyfriend. I had a couple, but they weren't around long, I always found a reason to get rid of them. I didn't care. I was dead set on being a cardiologist. To be a cardiologist, I couldn't be married or be a mother. I thought that to focus on my career I didn't need those distractions. Then, what happens one day? I meet Jason. I just have to get married. Then of course the kids follow. I am in no way saying that if I could do things different that anything would be different, or I regret anything that I have done. I am saying that I have come to the realization that sometimes things don't go as planned and that is perfectly fine. Had I not met Jason, I would have never met the man that is absolutely perfect for me. I would have never had those three beautiful boys that call me mommy. As I get to the last 365 days of my 20's that have somehow slipped by so fast, I see that I could have never imagined the perfectly chaotic life that I have and LOVE.
So, my plan for my 29th year is to enjoy every second of it. I have no idea what it will bring, so I'm just gonna roll with it! I think that is going to be my plan for the rest of my life. Why worry about what didn't get done in my 20's, 30's, 40's etc? The only thing to do is to make sure that I raise some wonderful men! Make sure that all the people in my life know how much I love them and how appreciated they are. Some people say that the 20's are supposed to be the best years, I am making them the years that I used for my stepping stones to make all my years from here on out the best years ever!

Kathy

Peek-a-boo

This is what Nicolas and I were doing before he went to bed. The big boys were sleeping already. Now that I have re-arranged the furniture we can walk around one part of the couch. Nicolas is on the couch and I get behind and we play peek-a-boo. He thinks that it is so hilarious. He jumps when he finds me and usually wears himself out. It is pretty funny to watch!

Kathy

What it means to be a Mother

When did becoming a mother mean that you could not, for the rest of your life, eat a hot meal?
This is lunch here: "Lucas I'm making ____. Do you want some?"
Lucas, "No, I don't like that."
Me, "Yes you do, you eat it all the time."
Lucas, "No, I'm not hungry. I don't want any munch." (he calls lunch munch)
Me, "OK, fine, don't eat."
I will make my plate, sit down and start to eat when he comes and either says he is hungry, but wants something else that I then have to get up and make or take the finger I just seen in his nose and put it in my food. Why does that happen? Lucas isn't the only one that does it, but he does it the most.

When did becoming a mother mean that you could not, for the rest of your life, take a shower by yourself? With Jason being gone all the time, of course if I just have to take a shower when the kids are awake, the door has to be left open. I try to wait to shower when they are all asleep. That doesn't always happen. Why does everyone need to use the bathroom or need to tell me something as soon as I get in there? When Jason is at home and I should be able to go in there by myself, WRONG! He thinks he has to be in there.

How can the kids be fine all day long, playing good, taking their naps, everything perfect, until the phone rings? It does not matter if I will be on the phone 1 second or 1 hour, they go into full on melt downs, fist fights and anything else they can think to do. Does the telephone ringer have some kind of secret tone thing that only kids can hear? I don't know if that one will ever be figured out.

These are the only gripes I have about motherhood today, check back, I'm sure I'll have more.

Here are some of the most lovely things about motherhood:
When Nicolas wakes up in the morning with that big ole smile on his face because he is happy to see ME.
When Lucas wraps his arms around my neck and says "Mommy I love you the most in the world."
When Jacob giggles at the t.v. and still has that little baby giggle that I hope so much never goes away.
When everything in the house is quiet, I go to see what is going on, and they are all asleep and look so angelic and I cannot believe that those babies are part of me.

Even though I have some mommy gripes, which I am sure most mommies do, I would never want to be anything else. I absolutely love those smelly, always dirty, boys more than anything in the world, more than hot food, more than taking a shower in peace, and way more than being able to receive a call!

Kathy

The Chair of "Exile"

Nicolas can pretty much climb up and down everything in the house, except this rocking chair. Jacob and Lucas have realized this so Nicolas is "exiled" to the chair when they don't want him to mess with them. He was put there today so they could eat their lunch. He wasn't there long until he fell asleep.

Kathy

I guess that Lucas was bored today or something! He said, "mommy, can you give me a wedgie?" I have no idea why he wanted a wedgie, but I complied with his wishes, even though I was laughing hysterically! He is going to ask me one day why I thought it was necessary to take a picture of this, and I will say, "Because I wanted to see the look on your face now!"

Nicolas

Nicolas will not sit in the high chair to eat, he has to sit on top of it. He of course thinks that this is hilarious. He is smiling like that because thats the face he makes when he sees the camera come out.I think the picture is cute, that's why it's on here!

New Years Resolutions

OK, it's New Years and you're supposed to make resolutions, although I never have! So I'm turning over a new leaf and making resolutions my first resolution! Ha Ha, not really. But here they are...

• I have got to be more organized, with everything. I have to do things in the house everyday(laundry, throw away junk mail, etc.)
• I have to stay on track with my schooling, so far so good, but then again I just started my second week.
• I HAVE to lose weight. I know, I know that's on every one's list. I really have alot to lose, at least 30 lbs!
• I want to be a better wife. I don't have to be(I think I'm pretty good!) I want to be. I love Jason very much and want him to be happy always.
• I want to be the best mother possible. Lucas says" Mommy, you are the mommy in the whole world" he forgets to say "best", but if they think that I am already the best mommy in the world, I don't need to let them down. When they want to go outside, I need to go outside with them. If Lucas thinks he can fly off the roof because he has that super cool cape, who am I to stand in his way? That is a joke, I would never let him jump off the roof! If I can stay organized, see first resolution, there is no reason that I cannot be a better mother, without the yelling and the melt downs on my part and theirs!
• And last but not least, I want to be a better me. I don't want to say anything stupid, then for weeks think about how dumb I felt and is the person I said it to mad at me, and then try to avoid said person for a month after that just for them to come back and say to someone else, why isn't Kathy talking to me what did I do to her?!?!? See, already broke that one, since Paula is the only one reading this now she's gonna think I'm a loser, cause I'm the only one that is amused by this rambling nonsense.

Anywho, we will see what happens in the year to come, besides all these things, we have alot to look forward to this year. I turn 29 in a few days, Lucas will turn 4, Jason the big 30, then Nicolas 2 and Jake 8. My babies are growing up!!

Kathy

It's a new year, so I decided to blog. I don't have time to scrapbook, but I am always putting my pictures on the computer anyway. Paula says that this is a good thing for those of us who don't have the time! We will see. Here's just a few pictures I took of them on Christmas. Nicolas really liked playing in the paper!